Read Bryce Walker's apology tape to Jessica on 13 Reasons Why

24 August 2019, 14:09

By Nicky Idika

Read the full transcript of Bryce Walker's apology and confession in the 13 Reasons Why season 3 finale.

13 Reasons Why returned for season 3 on Friday Aug. 23 and the shocking finale answered many of our burning questions. The mystery of what happened at Homecoming and who killed Bryce Walker loomed over the entire series, meanwhile Bryce's redemption arc and taped apology represented a bittersweet ending for the controversial character.

Warning 13 Reasons Why season 3 spoilers ahead.

Bryce manages to give Jessica and Alex an apology tape just before his death. Bryce even notes that he purposely made a tape to mirror Hannah Baker's own tapes.

While Bryce has been hated by almost every character on the show and despised by 13 Reasons Why fans, his apology tape strongly underscores the fact that he was trying to change and even help other survivors, like Tyler, in his own way.

In one of the season 3's final scenes, the group gathers together to listen to Bryce's taped apology and confession.

Bryce apology 13 Reasons Why season 3. Picture: Netflix

Read Bryce's apology tape to Jessica below

Hey Jess, it's me. Yeah, I know, a tape. Yes, I did it on purpose. Not to be a dick but because the day I listened to those tapes, my life changed. And I bet the same is true for you. And for Justin and Zach and everyone. And I wanted to give you this. I thought you'd hear me better if I wasn't standing in front of you.

You said I had no idea what I'd done to you. You were right. I can't stop thinking about you. Replaying that night in my mind.

I raped you.

I heard you say no, and I did it anyway. Because I wanted to and I didn't care how you felt. Justin tried to stop me. I wish I could tell you that there was a tiny voice in my head telling me that what I was doing to you was wrong. There wasn't. I never had one of those before.

That's not an excuse. It just is.

I raped Hannah Baker. I raped 7 or 8 other girls–some of them were my girlfriends at the time. I won't name them but if they choose to tell you...believe them.

I'm broken. I know that. I'm a person in a thousand pieces. But I'm seeing a counsellor. It's a long, hard process but little by little you start picking up the pieces. And you realise what you're making is a mirror. And the more pieces you put together the more you see yourself.

I'd like to say that I'm not the same person who raped you anymore...Jess. But what I've come to realise is that I'll always be him. But I'm trying to be better. To be someone worth something in this world. I have this dream that I could be someone who protects people, somehow. Protects them from people like me. Like, who I was. I don't know.

I am so...fucking sorry for what I did to you. And I know words add up to nothing compared to what I took from you. Someone once told me that it will take me a lifetime to learn what sorry is. They're right. But I'm starting.

If you've listened this far...thank you. It's more than I deserve. I wouldn't blame you if you smashed this tape to fucking pieces. I would. I wish you the best, Jess. Truly.

Goodbye.